2007- Perfect Peace

I typically use this blog for pictures. It is easier for me to throw a bunch of pictures up here than sit down and write, usually not making any sense, what I want to say. I am working on my photography website, which I hope to have up and running in the near future. I am super excited about this and hope it is worth all the trouble.

I have learned so much in the last 2 years. Having a child opened my eyes to so much more than I ever thought possible. It helped me understand what it is to love someone with no reserve. To see a piece of you walking, talking, screaming, loving, smiling, laughing, playing, is breathtaking. FAMILY is so important. I struggle with this everyday. Not a day goes by that I don't have to push anger and fear aside and try and be strong. I fail, all the time. I have always heard that time is the cure all, right, the fool that started that rumor should be shot. How much time must pass before the dust settles, the air is clear and we can all see each other for who we are. I wait anxiously for that day. Having Conan has helped me understand and appreciate the gift of Christ. I can't imagine giving up my son for the evil of this world.

I have been yearning for perfect peace in my life again. I don't have it all figured out. I pray that God in his mercy will show me how to believe again. Sunday at church we sang a song called: "Here I am to Worship" It brought me to tears as I was singing it. How simple, how true. Maybe the answer is not as complicated as I make it, maybe I am just here to say that he's my God.

"Here I am to worship"

Light of the world, You step down into darkness.

Opened my eyes let me see.

Beauty that made this heart adore you

hope of a life spent with you.

And here I am to worship,

Here I am to bow down,

Here I am to say that you're my God,

You're altogether lovely,

Altogether worthy,

Altogether wonderful to me.

King of all days,

Oh so highly exalted

Glorious in heaven above.

Humbly you came to the earth you created.

All for love's sake became poor.

Here I am to worship,

Here I am to bow down,

Here I am to say that you're my God,

You're altogether lovely,

Altogether worthy,

Altogether wonderful to me.

I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.

I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.

And I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.

No I'll never know how much it cost to se my sin upon that cross.